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  • "Happiness hit her / Like a bullet in the back / Struck from such a great height / By someone who should know better than that..."

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Hello. I am alive. So much has happened so fast. Since we last talked I’ve logged over 1,500 miles on my car traveling to out-of-town interviews, networking events, bridal showers, and bachelorette parties. My car has been in the shop 3 times and I have cried in it twice. I got hired to my first full-time professional job and negotiated my starting salary higher than I ever thought it could go. The job starts June 4th. I am lucky, but it’s not yet sunk in. I spent a wildly glamorous weekend in Vegas complete with the romance-novel-worthy acquisition of a gorgeous blue-eyed lover from London. My descent back into reality was jarring: the sudden rediscovery of passion and romance shattered my contentment with my ever-single life. I found myself confused and frightened by the terrible sense of vulnerability that intimacy creates… but ready for it. Ready to return to the uncertainty and awkwardness of dating and sex. I feel like my weekend lover cracked open my shell — I’m a just-hatched bird now, clumsy and naive but finally free. I see now that it’s okay for me to develop silly crushes and get my heart broken and make obvious mistakes… I can’t be perfect and I don’t have to be. For years now I have been mistaking being human for being immature. My best friend cheated on her fiance. Just like that, everything changed. We are not talking at the moment and my heart aches for her confusion, but I feel like I’m free now. I no longer owe her endless hours and dollars of aid. As her maid of honor (and childhood friend) I sincerely hope that she works her issues out, and I want to help her have a wonderful and unforgettable wedding. But it’s just one weekend. I can finally step back and see it as a single event. A wedding is not a marriage itself; it’s the event that kicks one off. I found an apartment in Columbus. It took multiple trips and several literally sleepless nights. My parents’ Internet went down for 10 days, which meant I spent every day in a coffee-shop, binging on energy drinks and coffee to try to push through exhaustion and illness. Right after Vegas I caught strep throat; I kept it a secret because I was tired and embarrassed of getting sick. Unfortunately my crazy antibiotics created a secondary infection! When I admitted this to myself I cried in my car, discreetly bought Gatorade and the proper medicine, and dealt with it. I am profoundly tired. I have acquired an iPhone 4. I play Dream Zoo every time I start to feel stressed out. I have gone to a tailor and a dry-cleaner — both firsts for me — and cleaned and started re-packing my car, but I can’t figure out how to get big furniture. I move on May 26th. I have done a lot of shopping here. My grad student wardrobe proved woefully inadequate for classy dinners and brunches, etc., and I need many apartment things. I’m sick of shopping but also grateful: I’m lucky I can afford a good chunk of what I need. What else. My only friend in West Chester moved away. My brothers are officially moving to San Francisco. I got a crazy Etsy commission that snowballed into something way beyond my skill-set… the client wants wasp wings and a cyberpunk eye-patch and things that I have never attempted to make. I’m stoked. But I worry that I won’t be able to make his commissions on time within his budget. I have gone on a couple of dates with a boy a friend set me up with. She set me up with him at a horrible time — I knew I’d constantly be out of town and maybe getting a job in another city — but he has been persistent. I regrettably am not physically attracted to him at all, but he’s lovely. I feel like we’ve become fast friends. It’s unfortunate that he presumably is looking for more, but I’m moving soon. I’m not going to overthink it. More? Yes, but I’ve already binged-posted. There you have it. I’m ultra tired now! I’ll be back on Tumblr again someday soon, sharing pretty pictures instead of my rambles. :) It’s good to be back.
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therisetoperfection asked: I love your blog <3 It reminds me of lemongrass and citrus- it's natural and sweet and makes you happy :)

Thank you! I love your blog, too. It makes me remember to take a deep breathe and let the wind tousle my hair. :)  Glad to make new Tumblrfriends. <3

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